all I ever wanted

Regret is the part of me that makes my decadence meaningful I am separated from you by time and circumstances I never expected this to be in a room full of wreckage full of all the things that I am most afraid of facing but kiss them quiet quiet for me

But all I ever wanted was to write the things you made me feel that trascended being like moon over all and never forget how good it can be when you're here with me

So I play the same song five million times because it hypnotizes me and suddenly I am back where I belong where I have always belonged nestled in your arms kiss me quiet quiet me

And if I were normal I would realize that my entire life is a shrine to your memory to the broken part of me that hurts too good to heal

And if I were normal I would realize that holding on is destroying me and i would move on

But I don't think I'm normal and I don't think that other people think the way I think unless they're dying so i learn play it off and i learn to laugh and scoff and i say that the person i care least for in this world is you